Wow, I get to share my testimony with
people on the internet world! I know some people are not going
to believe me but I have to share my life in the way it
happened.
Let me start from the beginning. I believe
I was in grade school but I can't even remember. I was very
young. I was in this very small group and this man spoke on ---
well I really don't know? I was just sitting there and he gave
the invitation to accept Jesus Christ into my
heart.
Any way I felt this push from my Mom.
"What are you waiting for?" So I bowed my head and said the
prayer. Believe it or not God saved me at that point but He had
a lot of work to do inside me. I actually felt a new
start.
Most testimonies are," I did this and this
and this and then that happened and I got saved." I am the
oddball. This does not bother me because most of my life I was
the third man out. Two is company and three is a crowd. That was
me and probably still is the basic theme of my
life.
I was so young and the Lord had the wisdom
to work very slow in my life. I just lived my life but I did not
think about God very much. I don't even think I knew
how.
In 9th grade I started to watch Jack Van
Impe and was amazed at all those Bible verses he memorized. I
tried it myself because I knew there was something to this but I
did not stick with what I was doing. I believe seed was placed in my spirit from heaven
but I did not understand that at the age and time I was living.
In 10th grade I went through my first
major trial. Boy did I ever get the difficult teachers that were
impossible. They were so hard. I was getting D's which were not
allowed in our household. I was working 25 hours a week and was
just not right in my mind and my spirit.
One day in all my overwhelming stress I
was lying in my bed on my back and out of nowhere or should I
say heaven the love of God just came on me so strong that I knew
it was Jesus Christ. Not I but Christ in me.
That whole year I allowed Jesus Christ to
do this to me or should I say in me. My circumstances were
horrible but Jesus Christ was actually working in me with His
overwhelming love.
I had this fear. What if I ever lost this
anointing and sure enough my fear came true? I got very
confused.
I never got that type of anointing back
but little by little I wondered what I could do for Jesus
Christ. I used to go to the nearest city and just sit down and
look at all the people. Eventually Jesus Christ called me to a
gospel track ministry.
God blessed the ministry but around 1998 I
was going about my business getting the Gospel out and the Lord
spoke to me. "Get all you can get out now because there is
coming a time when you won't be able to do this
anymore."
Well I'm thinking Rapture. The year 2000
was coming and I presumed way to much. Anyway things happened
and I had to leave the ministry.
I was devastated. I can not get into it
but this was one of the worst things that ever happened to me. I
can not talk about what took place. I will tell you in heaven.
Some things are just better left not said.
After a year I saw a man that I felt had
the skills to do this so I called him with fear and despair not
really knowing what to do. He was out of work so I said," I have
5000 gospel tracks and I will pay you $400 to hand them out." He
was so excited and could hardly believe that I would pay him
that kind of money.I said a man is worth his labor. This was not
the response I was expecting.
It turns out that the man did things with
gospel tracks that I never even knew were possible as he
traveled all over the country and applied his new trade for
Jesus Christ. Was that an accident? God had it all planned out
because He sees the whole world. There is not one thing that God
does not know.
I did not have the mind to organize
something like that but I was an actor just playing my role in
this script that was already written before the foundation of
the world. I did not know what I was doing but who says God
can't use bad actors to make a great film.
As for me everything that could have went
wrong in my life did and I fell into some strange depression. I
would come to a fork in my life and there would be 20 different
things that could happen and the worst would always take place.
This was not only physical but spiritual. I had no clue how to
fight this invisible war and no idea how to cope. I felt so
helpless.
About 5 years ago I received a call from a
women who is in her seventies. We talked many times. In fact we
were even in ministry together writing articles for Jesus Christ
and God at one point opened up all kinds of opportunities for
us. People got saved and Christians grew stronger in Jesus
Christ.
In the phone conversation she told me that
Jesus told her that I went through so much suffering and then
she went on to talk about small things.
I asked myself if Jesus spoke to her
verbally or in her spirit. I thought about this for a couple of
months. When I talked to her again I finally mustered up the
courage to ask her what Jesus said about my life. She said
without hesitation that Jesus told her," I am going to put Bobby
through a trial much like Peter and Job and when he gets through
the other side he is going to be much stronger." Jesus spoke in
the present tense, not the past tense because I was still going
through the ordeal.
I asked my friend if Jesus spoke to her in
a verbal way or in your spirit. Her response,"Verbal." I knew
exactly what she was talking about because I lived this
nightmare. Peter was accused in the garden and Job had most
things stripped from his life. I was going through these two men
of God in the Bible at the same time all in one. Jesus had some
other truths that He told her that I just knew deep down were
true.
The only thing I did not understand was
the last part of my personal prophecy. The part where I would be
much stronger on the other side. I had no clue what that meant.
God truly saved the toughest trial for the end of my life. We
are very close to the return of the Lord.
Just recently I have had this unexplained
strength in my spirit. For the first time in my life I know that
everything is going to be alright no matter what happens to me.
My comfort, my love and my strength is in Jesus Christ. It is a
quiet strength from the Holy Spirit that can not really be
defined. I just know this peace and love inside my spirit is
from God.
This dear lady made it absolutely clear
that God was the author of my trial and He will finish it in His
Son Jesus Christ. I never knew that because I thought it just
happened. I should have known better. This gave me great
comfort. God did not tell her what the trial was because our All
Knowing Savior and Lord has discrestion. I thought that was very
interesting.
For those of you going through something
so much bigger than yourself remember God may be the author of
your trial. God loves you so much that He wants you to come to
the end of yourself. Jesus wants you and you should want Jesus
more than anything in life.
If you have depression don't try and put
the cart before the horse. Take life as it comes, accept it for
what it is, just trust God and act the way God would want you to
respond. If a person makes this more complicated then he or she
will be in the way. God will not be able to work in their spirt.
This group of people will stay in their depression. God does not
want this for us or our life.
I know that Jesus is coming very soon to
rapture His true children not only because of the macro
prophecies around the world but because of the personal prophecy
that Jesus Christ Himself gave me. It has only been a short time
that the,"Much stronger on the other side" part has come to
pass.
I am stronger on the other side at this
juncture of my life. Our Blessed Hope (Rapture) is very close.
Of course only time will tell regarding the timing of the
rapture but through the resurrection power of Jesus Christ true
Believers in Him will be strong. I am a living testimony of this
truth. Our strength is in Jesus Christ through our faith in
Him.
If Jesus Christ were to come today would
you go up in the rapture? A few people said,"Get right with
Jesus Christ or get left behind." This is a tough statement but
it is true. From the bottom of my heart,"Be ready!"
God Bless you Bobbie and God loves you oh so very much.
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